Hello, blog! Sorry, I've been so distant. It's not you, it's me.
Plenty has been happening, and I've been trying to save it up, so as to keep the video below active for folks to view without having to dig through the archives. But then some other things came up that drove me away from posting any more for a while.
My friend, Marcis, passed away. Actually, he passed away right before his birthday in February. I didn't find out about it until a couple of weeks later for his birthday, when I called and never got a response. I sort of figured something was up. And I got a call back from some friends of his who had just recovered his cell phone, and who kindly listened to my message and returned my call, letting me have the bad news. His funeral service had passed by without my knowledge, and the extra dollop of misfortune here is that he'd asked me -- prior to having his kidneys removed and knowing he had, at best, six months to live after the procedure -- to come to his funeral and say something in case anything happened. Sadly, that opportunity has now passed me by. I'm sorry, Marcis.
I've met him from around the time I started my life here in SF. He's one of those people who, personally, seems very even-keeled, even a little happy-go-lucky and with-it when you know him passingly, but in whose life extremes played themselves out with alarming frequency. Some of these situations were of his own doing. His substance abuse and HIV satus were ostensibly products of his own decision-making -- but so was the way he kicked his bad habits and got his life straightened out in the time he had, and was lucky to have a wonderful, caring partner up to the day he died. Others, like random comas, renal failure, and robbery at gunpoint, were completely out of his control. But equally out of his control was the support of his loving family and, despite his passing, his resilience.
His own personal grace and determination and attitude were all his own doing, however. Goodbye, Marcis. Rest, now. It was too soon, but . . . rest yourself.
In addition to Marcis, my "uncle" passed away as well. I use the scare quotes because he and my aunt were divorced many years ago, and he was unrelated to my immediate family by blood (my aunt in question is my mom's sister). So, technically not "uncle." But, really, I've never been able to call him anything but that, even in my own head.
Not that it mattered much, because I saw him with vanishing frequency from my adolescene and into adulthood, and so rarely had to address him as anything. My parents and aunt left kind thoughts and words on his digital "guest book," and since I knew him only briefly, and my memories of him are sufficiently removed from the present as to be those of a child and tween, there's not much I can say. But many people said really nice things about him, and their memories are fresher, and so I'll let their recollections stand uncommented. With the added note that my uncle had many more people sign his book than Marcis', which isn't either of their faults, and my observation doesn't stem from some sort of morbid contest, and Uncle Lenny lived to his 80s and Marcis to his 30s, but . . . well, as Z-Man said, on reading their obituaries, it's rather shocking and humbling to see someone's whole life reduced to a paragraph on the page.
So to that end I've decided to write a book before I die. A paragraph? Screw that for a lark. I'm going to make a graphic novel. And I'll probably lie like hell about everything I've done, so only those who actually know me will be able to separate the truth from fiction, which is both their reward and their punishment, and no one else will know, which is theirs.
Take that, stupid mortality.
So, apart from padding my chapters, I'm actually, you know, doing stuff. I had March "off" with regard to my other pursuits, which is actually a good thing, since March and April-so-far have not been so great at work. You know it's obviously bad when even your Astrologer who's never met you or anything says in no uncertain terms: Oo, wow, sorry about the work sitch. Yeah, the cosmic suckitude is that bad that even a much-ridiculed divination system is picking up on it.
But I'm back in improv class this month, and have another performance coming up in May, when I'm also starting up yet another class. This class is on a format called The Harold, and is very different from what the Triptych was. Basically, we get an idea from the audience, and riff on it for a while, sharing thoughts, experiences, sayings, emotions, senses, whatever about the word, and directly with the audience (and each other), and then we begin a bunch of short scenes, one after another, in no order, with no planning, in which we return to some of the ideas that came up at the beginning, and which we flesh out as a small scene. It's wide open, very random, with no planning or arrangements, or genres, or anything. The scenes don't have a planned beginning or ending, and can go anywhere. To me, it feels like an incredibly pure expression of improvisation, boundless, but for the inspiration from your fellow performers.
I think I'm going to enjoy the freedom.
P.S. This bit from Wikipedia about the "psychology of improvisational theater" describes improvisation and acting as an altered state of consciousness. Which is awesome.
P.P.S. I finished Rome and Jerusalem, a book I'd been reading about the conflict in 67-70 CE that led to the destruction of the second temple. It was fascinating. Really amazing. The author took his time to really depict, as best he could, what life was like around that era, and what pressures and situations led up to it, and what happened afterward. I learned so much.
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